My name is Margaret Lim and I had recently been baptised in water, thanks to the wonderful FGA team that made it possible. So full is my heart that I am compelled to share my story.
My first encounter with Christianity was in Junior College. Someone came to share the good news with me and I gladly accepted. I had a history of back problems since 12 years old when I fell the wrong way during a school sport’s event and fractured my spine. I went through a major spinal cord surgery and recovered fully after a long period of hospitalisation. From then on, going in and out of hospital was part and parcel of my life, so I knew how fragile life was and felt the need to find my faith.
In my early 20s, coming home after a posting in the US, unfortunately, my back problem came back to haunt me and it changed my life forever. This time round, after several surgeries, I gradually lost the ability to walk. My world was thrown into chaos. Many years of pain, suffering, disappointment and anger followed. No matter what I did, there was little improvement in my condition. From the waist down, I have absolutely no control of my body. I was bitter and angry and for the longest time struggled to make sense why did all this happen. Why did God permit all this suffering? Is He even there?
It’s also through those darkest moments in my life, that I could feel God slowly changing my heart. It was a time of ploughing, sowing, watering and waiting in my life. Even though externally my condition stayed the same, God had instilled in me a deep desire to seek Him, to go to Him in full dependence – every day, every moment. He sent people to journey with me as I cope through the period of pain – physically, mentally and emotionally.
There are days that I wake up and I tell God I cannot do this. I just don’t have the strength to face the day. God reminded me of His word in 2 Corinthians 12:9 – “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness”. I choose to walk in faith every day knowing that God will see me through all the challenges. And many times, the more challenging the situation, the more I learn to simply trust Him, the more God shows me His perfect plan and his perfect power.
I had certainly taken a long time to decide on baptism, but after all the trials and tribulations, I had finally come to understand that I am also very blessed. With this water baptism, I want to commit to the Lord and declare to everyone that I am His.
I know God wants me to share this message. Life is never perfect and sometimes things happen that make us question our faith and our existence. Don’t give up, stay the course. And let God in. Although I cannot walk, God has sustained everything and make everything I can ever imagine good – a loving family, a wonderful husband, supportive friends, a job that I love, and I trust that He will use this broken vessel to water.
I am proud to be a disciple of Christ and proud to be part of this FGA family!