Testimony – From a place of pride

Josiah Ye and his family (parents and younger brother) have been a part of FGA since he was a child.  Josiah serves this church community as a vocalist on the worship team and as a teacher in Sparks ministry. His testimony is one that will resound with many of us who have battled the unnamed idols in our lives. Here is his story. 



When I was younger I was always slightly envious of those who came to church as non-believers. I envied the Damascus Road experience all of them seemed to have gone through; an intimate and transformative experience, coupled with the conscious choice each and every one of them made to follow Jesus. It was a beautiful thing to observe, yet remained elusive to me.

Despite having had the privilege of growing up in this community, I’ve always felt I was missing something these people had. Years of sunday school and youth service had taught me little more than ‘the right answers’ and a set of rules we had to follow.

My social experiences in church had also left me very jaded; my interests and conversations were completely different from most of the people my age, I was always the odd one out socially, never feeling like I really belonged or fit in.

It was in the midst of this that I began my search for significance and meaning. If I wasn’t going to find it it socially, then I was going to find it in achievements. And what better achievement than making the world a better place, and leaving a legacy.

They say that the path to hell is paved with good intentions, and in my search for significance I began to picture the many possible ways I could make the world the better place through my own means. At the end of each scenario, my answer was always the same: I needed more power, and I needed to be in a position of authority.

God wasn’t never in the picture. Unbeknownst to me, significance had become God and pride had taken over.

And what an deceptive animal Pride is. It drove me to want to be better than everyone else, I studied hard for my exams because I needed to do better, because if I were better, perhaps I was more significant, perhaps I could make a bigger difference in the future. I began to try to elevate myself into leadership positions just so I could feel more important.

This stuck with me from secondary education all the way to the first few years of university.

But this year, God brought clarity and focus to my life through a series of events.

Double Crisis

It was my fifth year in my Architecture program and I was nearing the end of my thesis preparation.. As any prudent fresh-grad-to-be would have, I had sent out my resumes hoping to secure a job before I graduated. The only response I got was from the company I had interned at previously, which offered me a position, but at a rate that lower than the industry standard.

So I was in a dilemma; should I take the job, as low as the remuneration was, or should I send out another round of resumes after my thesis was over, which meant competing with the rest of the cohort who would be doing the same.

At this point another company got back to me requesting an interview; this was a company I had never heard of or seriously considered. At this point I was already resigned to accepting the only offer I had, and was on the verge of cancelling the interview, but a voice inside me kept saying, “go for it, even if you fail, it’s a good learning experience.”

So I went for that interview, and during that interview everything just seemed to fall into place; they had specific requirements that they needed met, and I happened to fulfill all of them. And upon hearing that I already had an offer of employment, they offered me a job on the spot. I was completely stunned as I left their office that day, and as I walked out into the late afternoon sun, my heart was filled with another type of warmth, and I just knew I had just received a gift.

But there was more to come.

2 weeks later I did unexpectedly badly for my final thesis presentation. It was so bad I knew that there was a very real possibility of me failing. If I did, not only would it mean repeating the entire year, but my job offer would be rescinded as well. To make matters worse, my results were due at noon the very day I was to start work, which meant that my first day of work could very well be my last.

This uncertainty hounded me for weeks after and I was unable to do anything but wait. I had difficulty thinking about anything else and was living in a state of anxiety and worry.

A Daily Habit

It was around this time in April, that our DE group hit the chapter on Quiet Time. As someone who was taught the importance of Quiet Time the old school way, quiet time to me when I was a young boy was simply a motion we had to go through to appease our mother so we could get her blessing to use the computer.

I guess then it was no surprise that I grew up seeing quiet time as a form of transaction; we ‘spend time’ with God, and in turn, we get his favour and blessing.

Imagine my surprise when I learned that spending time with the Lord daily actually pleased him. Something in me shifted when I began to understand that the God of the universe didn’t just see me as an errant child coming to him every now and then to ask for a favour, but that spending time with an insignificant person such as me actually pleased him.

And so I made a decision. I decided that if spending time with God everyday would make him glad, it would be 20 minutes well spent. So I began a very basic daily routine reading the Daily Bread Devotionals every day, and to make up for my terrible memory I decided to start journaling as well.

The very first week I started, God sent verses of encouragement every time I read. I begin to enjoy these everyday meetings with God, and ended each time feeling a little more joyful and excited. It was an incredible experience and gradually I began to let go of my anxiety and worry to focus on the upcoming Cool Camp preparations.


Cool Camp came and went, and it was an incredible experience for all involved – from the teachers to the volunteers to the children and even the parents, I believe each and every one of them took home a little something special from God that camp.

And now, I was about to enter a new season; one that would likely occupy me for the next 30 years – work. To my great relief, God was merciful and I found out eventually that I was had been given a borderline grade for my thesis, which thankfully meant I still had my job.

The first two months of work was tough but enriching. Architecture was very demanding in both time and mental capacity, and this was an opportunity for me to begin to focus and prioritise what really mattered to me. But the one thing that I wasn’t willing to compromise was my daily meetings with God; on especially trying days, these daily meetings were what got me through.

Wisdom & Direction

As God began to minister to me slowly but surely, I began to ask for wisdom. In a era of post truth and rampant subjectivism I wanted to be able to make right choices that would please and give glory to God.

God honored my request, responded with a verse (Psalms 90: 12) and also began to gradually reveal to me what I needed to do this season. He made me realise that effective change wasn’t the result forcing policies or statues onto people, but that it begins through loving, caring and building deep relationships with others.

This was such a revelation to me I had to take a week to completely realign my thinking. “Now you know what you need to do, so go do it.” God said.

Never having to do it so intentionally before, it was a really really difficult thing to start; it became so evident to me how much pride had seeped into my life; I was so unaware that so much of what I did I treated as a transaction or to appear better/smarter than everyone else. But pride has no place in a healthy relationship and I had to continually assess my heart and every action to determine if I was doing something out of love, or out of a self-serving motive. I had to learn a heart of humility – the key to every successful relationship.

It was a challenge every single day. Some days my mind gets so caught up with whether or I’m truly doing what I do out of that same love that Jesus to die for us, or if I was just going through the motions. What does it even mean to love? Do I need to feel it before I do it?

I found the answers in several books. The Five Love Languages – Gary Chapman for instance. In other books, certain quotes stuck in my mind.

“Do not waste time bothering whether you ‘love’ your neighbor; act as if you did. As soon as we do this we find one of the great secrets. When you are behaving as if you loved someone, you will presently come to love him.” – C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. – Philippians 2: 3

So this is where I am today, and I daresay I still have quite a ways to go before I can call myself pride-free. I think the one biggest takeaway I’ve learned along the way, is that God cares more about who you are than what you can do or where you’re positioned. God can use anyone, as long as they are teachable and willing to be led, and real, effective change can only be had when you are willing to humble yourself to accept it.

That’s the only way we can become who we’re meant to be. And the day we all become who God has meant for us to be. Well, I daresay the world will definitely be a better place then.



Baptism Testimony by Margaret Lim

My name is Margaret Lim and I had recently been baptised in water, thanks to the wonderful FGA team that made it possible. So full is my heart that I am compelled to share my story.

My first encounter with Christianity was in Junior College. Someone came to share the good news with me and I gladly accepted. I had a history of back problems since 12 years old when I fell the wrong way during a school sport’s event and fractured my spine. I went through a major spinal cord surgery and recovered fully after a long period of hospitalisation. From then on, going in and out of hospital was part and parcel of my life, so I knew how fragile life was and felt the need to find my faith.

In my early 20s, coming home after a posting in the US, unfortunately, my back problem came back to haunt me and it changed my life forever. This time round, after several surgeries, I gradually lost the ability to walk. My world was thrown into chaos. Many years of pain, suffering, disappointment and anger followed. No matter what I did, there was little improvement in my condition. From the waist down, I have absolutely no control of my body. I was bitter and angry and for the longest time struggled to make sense why did all this happen. Why did God permit all this suffering? Is He even there?

It’s also through those darkest moments in my life, that I could feel God slowly changing my heart. It was a time of ploughing, sowing, watering and waiting in my life. Even though externally my condition stayed the same, God had instilled in me a deep desire to seek Him, to go to Him in full dependence – every day, every moment. He sent people to journey with me as I cope through the period of pain – physically, mentally and emotionally.

There are days that I wake up and I tell God I cannot do this. I just don’t have the strength to face the day. God reminded me of His word in 2 Corinthians 12:9 – “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness”. I choose to walk in faith every day knowing that God will see me through all the challenges. And many times, the more challenging the situation, the more I learn to simply trust Him, the more God shows me His perfect plan and his perfect power.

I had certainly taken a long time to decide on baptism, but after all the trials and tribulations, I had finally come to understand that I am also very blessed. With this water baptism, I want to commit to the Lord and declare to everyone that I am His.

I know God wants me to share this message. Life is never perfect and sometimes things happen that make us question our faith and our existence. Don’t give up, stay the course. And let God in. Although I cannot walk, God has sustained everything and make everything I can ever imagine good – a loving family, a wonderful husband, supportive friends, a job that I love, and I trust that He will use this broken vessel to water.

I am proud to be a disciple of Christ and proud to be part of this FGA family!


Opened Eyes, Open Hearts

Dee Sherwin is a new believer and a part of the FGA family. She went on her first mission trip to Bethesda Batam in July, and she shares her experience here. She hopes this testimony will encourages more of us to obey the call to be sent out, like Dee and her friends did. 

It was a wonderful and amazing weekend for some of us on 21-22 July 2018, but especially for me, because this short mission trip has opened up my heart to hear God and clarify certain doubts about who He is and how He works through broken vessels like us. 

 I have only been saved by the Lord recently, on the 21st of February, and since then my journey of knowing and understanding the Lord’s work has been quite an interesting one, with mountains and valleys.

 The trip to Batam, Indonesia was definitely a mountaintop moment, where we were given a chance to serve together and show God’s love to the children at the Bethesda Children’s Orphanage. There were about 42 children living there.

On our first day of the trip, we were divided into 3 teams – the kitchen team, the children team and the youth team. We were all allocated different tasks to speak God’s word & demonstrate His love to them. We were given an opportunity to tell stories, share our testimonies and talk about God’s great love to his children. We also had an amazing dinner cooked by our team and we were able to spend some time just in warm fellowship, and got to know the children better. 

I had an amazing time, filled with awe at our great God for giving me this opportunity to serve these kids with His unfailing love. Being born into another faith, it was a difficult journey for me especially when I accepted Christ as my saviour. Being on this mission trip has also taught me to open up my heart to embrace the identity issues I faced with my new faith. In Batam, I felt more accepted as we all looked the same and no stereotypes were forced on us just because we were of another faith.  This is something that I’ve always struggled with in Singapore, often having to face the judgment of others. I was thankful that I got to experience God and His love without those stereotypes laid on me. 

 On the second day, we had the opportunity to experience Sunday service at a wonderful church in Batam. The atmosphere during  worship was incredible. And you can sense God’s love surrounding us as we worshipped loudly with incredible energy.

 We then headed for a Sunday school for youth, where Elder Woon conducted a small class for the youths, addressing the impact walking with Jesus can have on their  life choices. I was really glad that I was able to join in for this class! My biggest takeaway was that in life, we have choices to make and those choices are better if it comes from the Father, and fits in within His will.

Although I was sad when the mission trip had ended, I know it won’t be the last. I was honoured that I’d been given this chance by the Lord to share the Word and for showing me what my life actually means.

 I‘ve also learnt during this trip, that we should always trust God no matter what kind of situation we are in, as He knows the best for us. I thank God for opening up my heart and answering the questions I had, allaying my doubts and uncertainty. I thank God for my wonderful team mates who were constantly encouraging me during this journey to know the Lord better. And lastly, thank you FGA for sending us to do the work of the Lord!

2 Thessalonians 1:11
To this end also we pray for you always, that our God will count you worthy of your calling, and fulfill every desire for goodness and the work of faith with power, 





Healing Revealed In A Dream – A testimony

Rebecca Hum is a partner of FG and attends a life group for young women. This is her testimony of God’s miraculous healing power and His comforting love for us.

I was struck with a strange ailment on the 3rd day of CNY (19th of Feb). My left ankle started swelling and I had tremendous difficulty walking with a swollen ankle, barely able to exert pressure on my foot. It was my first time experiencing such swelling that occurred without any trauma or stress to the ankle.
Prior to the swelling, I was having rather bad muscle tension at my hip and back which GPs had no concrete answers to. They prescribed muscle relaxants and chalked it up to my rigorous exercise regime.

Right after CNY, I went to see my regular GP and she suspected that it was gout and ran a blood test. For more than a week before the blood test results were out, the swelling did not subside and had started to affect the right ankle. I was in much distress as I could not exercise at all and was eager for a diagnosis to the strange condition of my physical health. I was greatly dependent on anti-inflammatory medication to reduce the pain.

When the blood test results were out, there was no indication of gout, SLE or Rheumatoid Arthritis. Just a minor sign of infection but there was no indication of the source of infection.
Due to my family’s history of auto-immune related diseases, I was referred to see a rheumatologist in TTSH. Further blood tests was done and, proved inconclusive as the results were normal, just a sign of infection detected. I was then prescribed with a non-steroidal medication that addressed the swelling of my ankles, and the pain and swelling subsided. However there was still an infection detected in my blood test result on the 2nd consult. There are side effects to taking this medication and I had to review on the effect the medication has on my body as I would likely be taking it long term to keep my condition under control.

One night on the 24th of April, 1 week before my 3rd appointment with the doctor to follow up on my condition, I had a dream. In my dream, my back was covered with black leeches. I felt no fear in that dream despite leeches looking black, slimy and kind of disgusting.

When I woke up, I was curious and decided to do an Internet search on what it meant to dream of leeches. My initial search result said it indicated that something was sapping my energy. That didn’t feel quite right, so I decided to share this with a close friend who was journeying with me on this walk with God. She told me to pray about it. One day, as I was just praying to God about this, I felt led to search “the medical use of leeches”. One of the websites revealed that, “Since the time of ancient Egypt, leeches have been used in medicine to treat nervous system abnormalities, dental problems, skin diseases, and infections. Today, they’re mostly used in plastic surgery and other microsurgery.” At that moment, I knew in my spirit that I am completely healed.

At my 3rd consultation with the specialist, my blood test results were fine and there was no sign of infection detected! Hallelujah! God had healed me miraculously.
When I shared this to most believers, their immediate response is “God healed you in your dream!”. Ever since Elder Charles gave his sermon on “I dream a dream” on the 10th of March 2018, God has been giving me dreams.

I hope this testimony will encourage you to have faith in a God who is so personal – yes, he is with each one of us. I was in great distress without an answer to my situation; I had doubts and worries about my health condition as what I was going through was abnormal for a person my age. In my struggles within my inner life and the anxieties, I felt that God comforted me with His peace that this episode will pass., that I will not be under the generational curse of the conditions linked to my predecessors. God is kind and faithful, He forgave my sins and gave me a miracle healing. I hope you are encouraged to seek God for the healing you need regardless of the circumstance you are in, even if it makes no sense rationally, seek the answer in the Almighty one.

Also, may this testimony encourage you to ask God to speak to us through dreams as it says in Job 33:14.
“For God does speak—now one way, now another—though no one perceives it. In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls on people as they slumber in their beds”.


Behind the scenes of Cool Camp 2018

If this picture was presented to a primary school student during an English oral exam, the child might describe it as: An image of 2 children running across neatly patterned black and white tiles, zooming past a lady who is wearing a cap and laughing as she sits cross-legged on the floor.

But is that really all there is to this picture? What if there was more to it?


Cool Camp is FGA’s annual stay-in camp for children aged 4 to 12 years old and it was recently held from 1 – 3 June at Changi Cottage. Every year, the children in Spark Kids, the children’s ministry of FGA, eagerly look forward to Cool Camp as the year’s highlight. With 3 full days of fun games, delicious food and interactive lessons learning more about God, it’s hard to imagine why children wouldn’t be excited!

This year’s theme was “FaceTime! Meeting God through His Word, every day.” Through lessons, videos, games, and an interactive walkthrough of a Tabernacle experience, the children learnt about how people in the past had FaceTime with God as they abided by strict orders throughout the Tabernacle, and how instead, today we can meet with the same holy God all the time, every day, because of what Jesus did for us on the cross.

For all the 20 over years I have been in FGA, this year was my first spending some time at Cool Camp to help out. Before I arrived at the campsite, my expectation of the camp was that it was going to be all about the children. That’s what a children’s camp is, right? Being all about the children?

But after spending the weekend at Cool Camp, my eyes opened to how I had only been seeing the camp in just one dimension. I had only been seeing what was obvious at the surface. Cool Camp really goes so much deeper and is about so many other people of all ages and walks of life coming together as a church to throb in a synchronised heartbeat.

It really is like the picture I started off with. Yes it is true – the picture does show 2 children running across neatly patterned black and white tiles, zooming past a lady who is wearing a cap and laughing as she sits cross-legged on the floor.

However what is also true, but not shown, is when this moment was captured – the time of debrief at the end of day 2 where all the volunteers sat down in a circle, waiting to start going through the next day’s activities; What is also true, but not visible, is one group of volunteers enthusiastically pointing and shouting out creative directions to the 2 kids running about. “One run from the left!”, “One run from the right!”, “Ok wait, don’t run yet!”, “Ok, both run now!”. What is also true, but not displayed, is another group of volunteers giving modelling advice to the lady in the middle as she tried various poses and asked, “Where should I look?”, “Is this ok?”, “Should I put my hand here?” What is also true, but not seen, is the multiple takes that the photographer shot, then checked, then shot again, and the unending runs that the 2 kids had to (gleefully) repeat. What is also true, but not presented, is the proud verdict “it’s a wrap!”, announced by the photographer’s trusty assistant, and the collective praise for this winning shot as the camera was passed around.

Yes, the picture does show 2 children running across neatly patterned black and white tiles, zooming past a lady who is wearing a cap and laughing as she sits cross-legged on the floor, but there were many other people, many other actions, many other conversations that had to work together to create this captured moment in time.

In the same way, whilst it may be the most straightforward to think that Cool Camp is about the children, what is also true but not as immediately thought of is the army of people who have come together from all parts of FGA to create 3 full days of a precious experience for the kids. There was the group from the Nepalese campus, the Filipino campus, and the English campus, constantly in the kitchen chopping and stirring, columns of rising steam perpetually dancing around them as they cooked meal after meal for the children; there was the group of young men and women bent over and huddled out in the heat of the day and dark of the night washing, wiping, drying batch after batch of plates, cups and utensils; there was the group of full-time working parents who came to teach from materials that they had spent time putting together prior to coming; there was the children’s ministry team and volunteers, some of whom had taken leave to be at camp, surviving on a lack of sleep but still wholeheartedly running about their duties; and then there was the team from the Salt and Light ministry who helped in the heavyweight transportation of logistics back from the campsite on a Sunday night.

While it is true that Cool Camp is a children’s camp, I now see that the camp for children is merely a by-product of the church coming together as one, selflessly bringing whatever each can contribute to love the next generation. Cool Camp, when seen for what it really is, presents a picture of the church in all its glorious beauty. It is a picture of a body built on members who give of themselves without expecting anything in return. It is a picture of a patchwork of people understanding that what unites them is stronger than what divides them. It is a picture of overflowing response to what has been done for us at the Cross – that our children will know who God is and the mighty works He has done.

Whilst the above is one of the my favourite pictures from the camp, what Cool Camp is a picture of, speaks greater volumes than what pictures we have captured of Cool Camp.

My heart has been so full watching the church in motion at the camp. I am reminded that the church is truly a beautiful thing, there is nothing like it, and I am so glad to be a part of one.



What other volunteers and attendees have to say about Cool Camp this year:

“I’m really touched to see especially the older guys in COOL Camp have understood and realised through this camp that God is actually working in their lives and calling them for something greater and for one of them, he is almost certain of what God has called him for.” – Zac Toh

“Four words sum up my experience about COOL camp 2018. God Is So Good. He is so good because He brought people from different generations to serve the next generation. Youth rise up to take care of the children and attend to their needs even late into the night. Older kids took care of younger one without anyone telling them to do so. Adults cooked late into the night so that everyone would be well fed the next day. People stepped in and helped whenever they saw a need. He is so good because He brought non-believers to the camp so that they may learn just a little more about Him and experience His goodness. Youths praying over the next generation as lives were touched, hearts were mended, souls were saved. He is so good because when weather forecast says its going to rain, He held back the rain so that kids could go outdoor to play. Everything is under His control. After six COOL camp, seeds have been sowed while some are already bearing fruits. And all praise and glory goes to Him for He is so good.” – Ng Hong Kiat, Camp Commander

“Observing them I learned how to be more childlike, and during the ministry time I felt the fierce jealous love of God for the children.” – Eugene Chia

“Personally, I feel that COOL camp 2018 has been a fruitful one as the teachings have impacted the kids in their own ways.” – Nathaniel Gan

“It was my first time being a volunteer. As a participant of cool camp I never realised how much effort went into planning and preparing it. The team behind it all is very admirable, because they had to devote so much time and effort into the camp, and although they were very tired they still managed to put in all their effort and do their very best in whatever they did .” – Chloe Lee

“I am very blessed to be a part of cool camp 2018 as i have witnessed the kids really learning and drawing themselves towards God! The kids have also lived out their Godly values during the camp which makes it very touching to see them having such values even at a young age! Personally i have also learned even through serving in cool camp that the impact given by the older generation to the younger generation is really important and i am encouraged too see the kids grow up!” – Jeriel Ng

Recovering your story

Recovering Your Story (Part Three)

This is the final instalment of a three-part entry about recovering God’s story for our lives. Read Part One and Two if you missed it previously.

Jesus the Truth

In Luke 4 when Jesus went to his hometown to preach there, he chooses Isaiah 61. 

The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,
Because the Lord has anointed me
To bring good news to the afflicted;
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to captives
And freedom to prisoners;
To proclaim the favorable year of the Lord

This is what he came to do. And to illustrate that, he set people free from demons and evil spirits, healed the sick – the blind saw and the lame walked. Today the offer still stands. To set us free from the strongholds and filters in our hearts. To bind our broken hearts from all we’ve suffered. God never meant for all the brokenness in your life but He is big enough to use it to heal and restore your identity, your name, and your purpose. In the brokenness, you can find the truth of your original design. Who he meant when he made you. Jesus came to restore us and that’s what he is committed to doing. He restored us to our Father, now He wants to make you whole.

Now in recovering your story, it’s important to understand we will be re-living the painful memories again. But this time, we need to allow Jesus to come into the various events of our lives that had either the world’s or the enemy’s interpretation – which gave you false messages about who God is, who you are, and who you are to him. He is not happy about what happened to you and he wants to come and defend us where we need to be defended, offer forgiveness where we need it, words of truth where we need it, and the true and right interpretation of events.

On pain again

Pain is your friend. -Pastor Terry Benavente

Yes yes I know, pain sucks and we all wanna avoid it. Like I mentioned before, I wanted to bypass pain altogether too. But as Christians, we are called to enter death and resurrection. To share in the death of Christ in order to share in his resurrection. To share in the suffering of Christ in order to share in his glory. I found something interesting about the beatitudes. The one about mourning.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted Matt 5:4

If we are not in touch with our brokenness in order to recover our story, we can’t mourn because, well, we wouldn’t know what we are supposed to be mourning for or are we even supposed to be mourning in the first place. In other words, no mourning, no comfort. One doesn’t need comfort if he or she doesn’t know what to mourn for. 

Recovering your story and walking with Jesus through the brokenness of your life will be painful but this time there will be comfort, there will be truth, there will be freedom, and there will be a great joy. Jesus himself endured the cross, which was the most brutal death anyone suffered in the history of the world, for the joy set before him! So there will be joy after mourning!

In closing

Whatever your story is, know this the foundation to be true:

Through faith in Christ, because of Christ, you are again a child of the most high God. A God that is wise, loving, just, intimate, noble, kind, strong, sovereign, faithful. A God that is your Father. A Father that chose you before he made the world. It was and is his joy and delight that he created you. To bear his image uniquely as male or female. That he made you for himself, to be his intimate ally in joining him in the great theme of the story of this age –  the redemption and restoration of your heart and the hearts of mankind. He has a specific purpose for you in this age and the age to come.

Would you allow God to take you on this journey of recovering your story? Would you allow Jesus to come into the broken and wounded places of your heart, restore the truth that was stolen from you, bind your brokenness? Would you allow him to interpret the many events that seemed to send all those false messages about who you are? Would you let him set you free? Would you let him comfort you? Would you let him come and make you whole?

If you do, then pray this prayer with me.

Father, yes. Yes, I believe in the story that you have and are writing about this age and the age to come. I thank you for sending Jesus to die for me. Through him, I have been restored to you. And now Jesus, you want to make me whole. I believe in your restoration work and I am ready. I accept your offer to take me on this journey of recovering my story. I want to be walking in your truth and your truth alone. I want to know you, experience you, be loved by you, and love you. The real you that only you can reveal. Come and take me on this journey to bind my broken heart, set me free, and make me whole.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Recovering your story

Recovering Your Story (Part Two)

 This is the second of a three-part entry about recovering God’s story for our lives. Read Part One if you missed it previously.

Know how we have been assaulted

It is the image of God reflected in you that so enrages hell; it is this at which the demons hurl their mightiest weapons -William Gurnall

We were created in the image of God. An image that all of us bear and one that is good and holy. The enemy fears us. He knows we will do a lot of damage on the side of good, for the sake of the Kingdom of God and in the name of our King Jesus. So he targets our identity and attacks with lies during times of trauma and brokenness to distort it. Because a person who doesn’t truly know who he or she is can’t live out the life that God meant. 

So even if a careless word was spoken to us, he is there whispering things like maybe people just don’t like you.  We try harder to be accepted, by agreeing with it, and that dangerously leads us on the path to self-sufficiency, self-dependence and gives the people around us the power to validate us instead of putting it in its rightful place, in the hands of the Father.

That’s just one example. Each person’s story is different and unique. Find an example and look for others over the course of your life and then you will start to notice something. That there is a theme to the brokenness in your life. 

In recovering your story perhaps it would be good to ask these questions. What’s the message behind the brokenness?

What’s the theme of the brokenness in my life? 

Have you been bullied when you were young for voicing out? Maybe you were made to be a voice and not an echo.

Have you been mocked for being sensitive? Maybe you were made with a sensitive heart to be able to feel what others can’t and to walk with people in a unique way. 


I have learnt that brokenness also comes about when we are not yet whole or the people we are relating to are not yet whole. Unfortunately, these people are sometimes the people that are closest to us. Are there wounds that need to be tended to? Are there people that we need to forgive and release into God’s hands? Maybe things didn’t work out quite as well you have thought and don’t know how to handle the disappointments. Maybe relationships? Marriage? Maybe you were assaulted with accusations and injustice and now there is some resentment?

Our past colours our present. So how we have chosen to deal with our brokenness contributes a lot to how we see God and see ourselves, more than we like to admit. We could be limiting God based on the way we have dealt with our specific brokenness, believing contrary to who He says he is. Sometimes the hurt is too much and we bandage it with self-medication – like sweeping it under the carpet, callousing our hearts to each other and to God. Over time, these become strongholds which hinder the working and experience of God in our lives. These further hinder our relationships, hinder our purpose and calling, hinder love. 

The good news is that God loves us too much to leave us with these filters and strongholds in our lives that do so much damage.

In recovering our story, we can pinpoint the origin of these strongholds and then let Christ set us free to be loved and to love God as he truly is and not through filters, brokenness, self-redemption, theological limitations etc. It is at this point we realise and remember that the price for our freedom has been paid.

Stay tuned for the final part of Eugene’s story, coming up soon.

Recovering your story

Recovering Your Story (Introduction & Part One)

I was baptised as a Catholic when I was a baby. Cradle Catholics, we call ourselves. Having an intimate relationship with God was not my experience growing up. My growing up years were difficult. I came from a broken family and didn’t have a good relationship with the male members of my immediate family. That contributed to how I saw God and related to him.

However, over the last few months, The prodigal father has run down my road and embraced me – forgiven and restored me to my rightful place – to be his son and by his side. He is showing me who he really is and is restoring my heart and my family. He is pouring out his love, words, affection, affirmation, and validation over me. There have been so many tears that I’m beginning to think that the number of tears I have shed the last few months are more than the tears I have shed in the last 10 years.

There have been tears of joy. Great joy. But also tears of sorrow.

One aspect of the journey that God is taking me on, I was initially fully willing to participate in. But over time, it has proven to be really hard.

It is the journey of pain and of mourning

Throughout this time, the Lord brought me to various places in my past. Places and memories long forgotten. Memories of brokenness, of woundings. Memories of my childhood where I was neglected and left to fend for myself. Memories of my childhood where I was only loved if I did X-Y-Z. Each time I would allow him to take me where he wanted and let him speak His truth. The only truth I desperately needed. I would find healing and restoration in this process.

This process happened more than a few times. There have been times where I mourned and felt the pain of a certain aspect of my youth over a period of a few days. After a while, it was getting too much and I started pulling away from the process of pain. I didn’t want to experience pain anymore, I was asking Him to just bypass the pain. Essentially, I was asking, “Can I have the joy without the pain, please?”

In His grace, He showed me that the reason for the pain is so that He can go deep.

Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being. Ps 51:6a

Getting the truth deep into my being involves this process of pain. I then wondered about the reason for the sometimes drawn out ongoing process. What is the whole purpose of all these processes? God opened my eyes to the idea of knowing or recovering my story.


Ever since the fall, God’s perfect story of your life (Ps 139:16) has been hijacked and used against you. Either by the flesh, the world, the evil one and his kingdom. What was meant for so much good has been abused by evil to distort the view of a loving and perfect Father. What was meant to be a childhood filled with wonder and play and delight from the Father has been instead used to mar the child heart in many. What was meant to be days of adventure and belonging has been instead used for addiction and isolation. What was meant for relationships filled with beauty and intimacy has been abused for idolatry and sexual promiscuity.We live in a broken world and we know this all too well.

You see, your life is a story that is a part of a larger story where God is the author. He has written and is writing a really big and epic story and you have a part to play. Through living in a broken world, our lives have been targeted and assaulted and have now indeed, include brokenness. Facing and understanding the brokenness in our story will help us to understand where and how one fits into the larger story.

This is the first of a three-part entry about recovering God’s story for our lives. Stay tuned for the next one, coming up soon.

Testimony: What helped me to stay out of prison.

We were blessed to hear Bruce’s testimony last weekend. While his daughter was his motivation to stay out of prison for good, it was God who gave him the strength to keep on the path. May his story stir you up and give you the strength you need for the challenges you are overcoming today.


Re:solution 12-day Fast and Prayer – Widya’s Experience

In January, FGA embarked on a 12-day churchwide fast and prayer. Together with a devotional focused on the book of Nehemiah, we waited on the Lord to show us the burdens He placed in our hearts, and provide direction and strategy on how to address these burdens.

One of our partners Widya shares her fasting experience with us.

“I was praying for breakthrough with children whom I deal with in my line of work. I fasted a dinner meal during the 12 day period. Initially, it created discomfort in my tummy for a few evenings but my system finally adjusted to it.
I discovered that fasting and praying is a good discipline and should be done on a more regular basis like weekly. It is very powerful when it is done with sincere intentionality to contend with God for breakthroughs over some strongholds. It’s amazing how we begin to hear more and more from Him, before witnessing breakthrough taking place gradually. Fasting teaches me how to persevere.

As I studied the devotional, what resonated most to me were the messages on days 4 and 8:

* FAST – PRAY – PLAN instead of the other way around, which most of us often do.
This requires much patience, humility and TRUST in His direction & timing!

* Valley experiences before the Fountain experiences.
Going through periods of uncomfortable/painful ‘pruning’ & ‘refining’ (purging out of any impurities) seems to take forever, but He is actually preparing us for greater work in the future. Understanding that what He’s working in us at all times will enable us to give thanks even in time of trials/valley moments. It is indeed true that only through trials, we’ll come out more refined in our characters and our faith in God.

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